My First Love

When I first started writing the only real thing I wrote was poetry. It was a fast and easy way to express the feels that I was experiencing. At thirteen or so I was angry with the world, hurt and lost and really felt there was no one that I could share those feelings with. I don't really remember where the thought came from to write those emotions down I just remember one day writing. It was to me what I would imagine walking feels like to a baby. One minute you are crawling around and then the next you are like I think I can stand and then you are walking. Just instinct.

As the years went on I have written many different things from short stories to long fiction to even fanfiction which I still credit with getting me back into writing today but somewhere along the lines I have moved away from poetry. Sure I write a poem here or there but not with the same sitting in a room with a notebook focused on getting the words just right intensity. I even thought a couple of years ago to make a goal of writing a new poem everyday for the year. I think I actually wrote about three.

Then today I was watching Oprah Winfrey's new station and she has a wonderful new show called "Master Class" and the guest for today was Maya Angelou. As she was speaking I realized how letting that part of me go has really hurt me in some ways. Poetry was and is such a huge part of who I am. I can still quote poems I learned in high school and college and when I hear a poem that really touches me then I am moved beyond. So why have I not written a real poem in really over a year? That thought hurts.

At one point I even thought to publish a book of poems and still I have done nothing with the poetry that I have around my home. It's painful to think that I am sitting on something that is so dear to me and yet not expressing it.

While watching the show I could feel a poem coming to me and I really want to work on it and explore that aspect of writing again. I am not going to say that I am going to write a poem a day but I am going to work on putting together a book of sorts with my poetry and looking into sharing it with the world. Thanks Maya.